Hmmmm..... a phone call gone haywire...a talk gone astray and a message of love lost.... all can make you sit back and realise what an amazing thing communication between people can be.
I for one have always observed the perils of communication between collegues, between mates, between acquaintances, between lovers, between married couples. What makes a bumpy road for them, no matter what the relationship inbetween is either the lack of communication or too much communication. With these two scenarios both parties know where they stand...but the most lethal that i have seen yet, is miscommunication...coming to a point where you would rather let it fall, leave it to die rather than try to make the other person understand what it was all about...thats the place of danger....you don't come back from that point on.
They say that "An arrow once thrown and a word once spoken can never be taken back", i realise to my horror that ominous as the above statement might sound...it is as true as the daylight that we live and breath in. Scientifically looking at the scenario of miscommunication, you can draw the analogy of a chain reaction happening...one word uttered can lead to something menacing...the result of that coupled by your brain patterns and insecurities or troubles from the present world...all rolled up in a ball of anger, can errupt and wash away all that is held dear and close to the heart.
Its a shame how we humans forget the love shared, the understanding developed, the laughter shared...in moments of anger. I dont know how the heart that loves you and you know loves you from its very core, can deliberately hurt you...and not just that..it actually utilises the knowledge gained from the time spent together, the insecurities shared and the confidences given against you. It all sounds very sinister i know but i have seen it happening right in front of my eyes...something you cannot close your eyes to....as it stares you in the face and demands acknowledgement.
You feel breathless, caged, trapped ...the conversation twisting and turning infront of your eyes....those beads of words that make a beautiful adornment with the strings of love and understanding...you can see them coming apart...and for what...your words having left the crevices of your brain through my mouth change form and shape in front of your eyes...in mid air they hang in their state of distortion...you dont mean to dictate anything, never could dare and never will...
Between yourself and the other person now there are words and distorted meanings...your external circumstances make you tough and unyielding...maybe resentful....the case is the same with the other party as well. They too are tortured by something that you didn't have the heart to ask after the converstaion goes beyond your line of compromise or understanding. Thats when you cannot stop yourself from giving in to anger. You fall prey to the words spoken and maybe not meant....but what makes you dejected and strained is that feeling of loosing your breath...the words encircling you like a taunting web of accustaion... your brain stopping to function, your sense leaving you completely and drawing you to your climax....
You realise you never would have severed the link if it had'nt been for that feeling of breathlessness...of loosing your grip on reality...In a relationship when accusations start flowing your way and you start reacting, thats when things get out of hand...all you can think of is that you're not this person, you are not who your are made out to be...for you dispise that person ...if someone were to actually convince you that you are that person you would not be able to survive. Would not be with them, would not be having that converstaion, would not be able to speak....and surely would not be able to love!
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